Hardly a day goes by in my house when I find myself unintentionally talking to myself. I thought I was talking to someone, but then I turned a found they did not hear a word. I am striving to not do that with Jesus.  I know how his voice sounds. (Sure the evil one tries to mimic Jesus’ voice)  There are days when I go about my business ignoring the voice of Jesus. Unfortunately, to my point of view, those days are not always disastrous. In truth they are, any day that I ignore Jesus is not a good day, no matter how well the day seemed to go. Sometimes the days I pay attention to what Jesus is telling me to do, those days are rough.  Then why is it important to listen? I mean seriously, if the day is going to be rough because I listened, and if I don’t listen, there is a chance of smooth sailing Why not chose the smooth sailing?  Because I know that when I listen, I have peace, which makes all the chaos of the day seem to melt away.  Okay, the classroom I was in today, had a kid coughing all over everything. But somehow, when I stay in touch with Jesus; the day does not feel chaotic.  I know that if you examine all the things, you will see chaos; but if you examine my impression, it just seemed like another day as a substitute teacher. Why?  BECAUSE JESUS BRINGS PEACE OF MIND, A CALMNESS LIKE NO OTHER.  When I give into temptation, there is a constant unrest, oh sure everything seems to be going my way; but in reality it is chaos in my head. I think I want to strive for the peace of mind. I mean in the end, all you really have is your memories.

John 10:25-30 (NIV):

25 Jesus answered, “I did tell you, but you do not believe. The works I do in my Father’s name testify about me, 26 but you do not believe because you are not my sheep. 27 My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. 28 I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish;no one will snatch them out of my hand. 29 My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all;  no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand. 30 I and the Father are one.”



I want to live without fear to be Audie Murphy Strong.

Remember when we talked about how many Christians reverted to Jewish ways?  How even we sometimes go back to old ways? It is more comfortable.  Well here in John chapter 9, the parents refused to answer because of their fear.

22 His parents said this because they were afraid of the Jewish leaders, who already had decided that anyone who acknowledged that Jesus was the Messiah would be put out of the synagogue. 23 That was why his parents said, “He is of age; ask him.”

Do we respond to circumstances out of fear? Not to sound repetitious, but that is just ole’ Satan wanting to keep you stuck.  When we respond out of fear, we respond from a position of weakness.  We are to be bold, courageous. Joshua 1:9:

9″Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

Just think of how many times Jesus said do not fear. I know that some researchers say as many as 65 times. Jesus reminded his disciples to fear not. Not always those precise words.  And there is a difference between fear and worry. Fear is paralyzing. Worry is more feeling anxious, it is not necessarily paralyzing, but it will slow you down. When we are afraid, we do not take action. When we are worried we move forward, just slowly. Don’t get me wrong; in certain situations a certain amount of fear is good. It will keep you alive, I am sure even Audie Murphy experienced a bit of fear. He is best known for running up a hill and taking out a Nazi machine gun nest in WW 2.  One of the most prestigious awards is called the Audie Murphy award. Despite his heroic act of charging a hill being fired upon from a machine gun nest, I am sure he felt fear.

But we are to live life without fear. Trusting in the LORD,  to be there, to fight for us, to live.

The ramblings of a Crazy

It has been a hard few weeks.  I thought that when the holidays were over things would get back to what would return to some semblance of normal.  I know that normal really is a state of mind. However, I frequently feel there is nothing normal about running around putting out fires. Then I heard someone say, well with the Ice Storm, I finally got my Christmas decorations down. Mine have been down, but the boxes are still sitting where I tucked them in the livingroom.  See this year, I decided to buy a real tree early.  So early, that it barely made to Christmas.  I tried so hard to force that Christmas Spirit on myself.  I made myself bake cookies, put up decorations, I even made myself listen to Christmas music. It worked a little bit.  I mean we are celebrating the birth of Jesus, Right? If that is not something to celebrate then I don’t know what is.  The problem is Christmas has become a time when I focus on who is not here  or where I am not, that I have hard time focusing on the birth of Christ. But the holidays are over and all that fuss is supposed to be over, the radio station just played a holiday commercial – It stated Christmas is almost here- THROW THE RADIO!!!!- no seriously someone oopsed and played the wrong tape. Yet it reminded me that how with the flu, and doctor appointments, the groove of the ordinary is nowhere to be found. Yet Jesus was born and he did die, he gave His life for ours, how is that normal?  Which brings me to the question what exactly is normal.  I think the reason some sort of semblance of normal has not returned to my life, almost a month after Christmas; I have a sinking feeling that God has change on the horizon.  Yes, I said sinking, I mean seriously who likes change.  The only thing I can do is pray a couple of prayers: Lord whatever the change is please let it begin, I really prefer order to chaos. Or Lord, if there is something I am missing send in the bricks, I am just not getting it. I know chaos can’t be the new norm, Chaos is from the evil one.  He is stirring the pot, trying to keep me distracted from the victory God has right within my grasp. I know I just have to close my hand around it.  Okay Lord, another prayer, can I stop being blind as a bat?  Can I see the solution for pity sakes? I do know that I need to stop allowing the evil one to allow chaos to rule. When things don’t go according to my plan, I will open my eyes to see God’s plan; I will endeavor to tell Satan yeah so what if I have to take three detours and a side step, who cares you can’t stop me because you can’t stop God.

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