The other day, on social media, I asked for prayer. I was humbled by the number of responses and extremely grateful.
It had been one of those days when everything went wrong. The previous night we received bad news. My body ached more than it had in some time. My vitals were terrible. I was 10 minutes behind all day. I literally sat down and cried to God. I told him exactly how I felt. Last nights news, was news that we had expected to be good news. It turned out to be the opposite of what we expected. I told God how we felt let down. How my health was not getting better. It had seemed to be getting better, but the past couple weeks; it was only getting worse. Then I heard this tiny voice say ask for help. I went on social media and asked for prayer. (the best help you can get) I repeat, it was a tremendous response. If you responded, even if you didn’t say anything THANK YOU I am feeling better.
We are still in need of help. My illness has placed us behind. My husband works extra hours. I have been unable to do much of anything except make it to doctor appointments, trips to the store, and making meals. Which has left me feeling useless. I know that I have to take care of myself and get better so I can continue to take care of others for years to come. But when all my efforts seemed to be failing, I started to feel down. Before this happened, not only had we started outdoor projects, I had started streamlining our house.
You know emptying the closets getting rid of stuff we hadn’t touched in years. It is all still sitting right where I left it months ago. Winter is here and the weatherization has not even started yet. So the other day, I was feeling bad about that. On top of it all, I learned the work car is going. But through many prayers, instead of just crying, I have started doing. Inspired by my actions my husband and son are moving in a more positive direction. Hopefully the work car will at least have windows that roll up.
The bottom line: When bad news pours, and our lives feel as if we are Job; we do not respond as Job, remembering God is in Control . He has this and sometimes in the darkest hours, we just need to reach out and ask for prayer.