Romans 15:13: May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
We are supposed to trust in God in everything and then be filled by the power of the Holy Spirit. This is easier said than done. If you are like me, you fail. The Evil One is constantly trying to whisper to us that we are not worthy. Nothing could be further from the truth. God says we are worthy. He sent his son to die for us. Jesus would not have gone to the cross to save us if we were worthless.
So many of us, myself included, are good at looking as if nothing is wrong, even when we feel as if we are falling apart. (allowing the evil one to trick us into thinking “worthless”)
My weakness is I am very insecure. There are days, when I look completely confident. Thanks to a dear friend, I have learned how to look put together. The harder I work to look put together, the less secure I actually feel. (allowing the evil one to trick me into thinking “worthless”)
If you see me in jeans and one of my husband’s shirts, that day when I look a mess, those days , I feel confident. There is no need to try to look confident that is how I feel. Or at least that is how I start out. (allowing the evil one to trick me into thinking “worthless”)
Then someone looks at me as if I am crazy, or someone treats me poorly. Then all those insecurities just rush into my head. Those days, I wish I was more put together. That I looked more confident, because I don’t want people to see how I feel. I want people to look at me and think she has got it all together (if they only knew). I need to remember Jesus says I am not.
As a result, I find myself ever thankful to that friend who taught me how to look put together. I put forth the effort. Because I am not worthless, Jesus died for me. I want to show the world, Jesus says I am wonderful. Jesus says we are wonderful.
The truth is I am forgetting that God really doesn’t care if I am “put together”. He says I am His creation: beautiful.
I am forgetting that God gave me the gift of the ability to think on my feet.
I am forgetting that God has sent the Holy Spirit to guide and direct me.
I am forgetting that if I depend on God, I can be confident, I can hold my head high; people don’t see all my sins from years gone by. (I just like to think they do.)
But most of all I am forgetting that most people are just like me insecure afraid. Yet we do not have to be because Jesus sent the advocate to guide us. When we depend on him, we don’t need to be afraid, insecure.