Asking for Help (It’s hard)

The other day, on social media, I asked for prayer.  I was humbled by the number of responses and extremely grateful.

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Have a hard cry

It had been one of those days when everything went wrong.  The previous night we received bad news. My body ached more than it had in some time. My vitals were terrible. I was 10 minutes behind all day.  I literally sat down and cried to God. I told him exactly how I felt.   Last nights news, was news that we had expected to be good news.  It turned out to be the opposite of what we expected. I told God how we felt let down. How my health was not getting better.  It had seemed to be getting better, but the past couple weeks; it was only getting worse. Then I heard this tiny voice say ask for help. I went on social media and asked for prayer. (the best help you can get)  I repeat, it was a tremendous response.  If you responded, even if you didn’t say anything        THANK YOU   I am feeling better.

 

We are still in need of help.  My illness has placed us behind. My husband works extra hours. I have been unable to do much of anything except make it to doctor appointments, trips to the store, and making meals. Which has left me feeling useless.  I know that I have to take care of myself and get better so I can continue to take care of others for years to come. But when all my efforts seemed to be failing, I started to feel down. Before this happened, not only had we started outdoor projects, I had started streamlining our house.

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My home is not this bad, but it feels as if it is

You know emptying the closets getting rid of stuff we hadn’t touched in years. It is all still sitting right where I left it months ago. Winter is here and the weatherization has not even started yet. So the other day, I was feeling bad about that. On top of it all, I learned the work car is going. But through many prayers, instead of just crying, I have started doing.  Inspired by my actions my husband and son are moving in a more positive direction.  Hopefully the work car will at least have windows that roll up.

 

The bottom line: When bad news pours, and our lives feel as if we are Job; we do not respond as Job, remembering God is in Control .  He has this and sometimes in the darkest hours, we just need to reach out and ask for prayer. 

 

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Downhearted or hopeful

When the things of life get us down, we know we should pray, but it is easier to feel sorry for ourselves as if we hacontrolve any control. We don’t have control because God is in control.  It is why so many of us like organization. It gives us a sense of control.  But when we leave everything to God and trust his directions; wonderful things happen.  Leaving things to God letting go of the control.

Life will still bring us down, but with God in control, we can rest knowing things will be alright.

Isaiah 45:22-24:

“Turn to me and be saved,                                  smiling sun
    all you ends of the earth;
    for I am God, and there is no other.
23 By myself I have sworn,
    my mouth has uttered in all integrity
    a word that will not be revoked:
Before me every knee will bow;
    by me every tongue will swear.
24 They will say of me, ‘In the Lord alone
    are deliverance and strength.’”

JUST 10 MINUTES

Have you ever decided to create a new habit?  You know a good one like I am going to eat more vegetables. I am going to relax more. I am going to exercise more. I am going to spend more time sitting quietly before the Lord waiting for him to speak to me.

Change is hard.  But sometime it is necessary.  They say it takes two weeks for a habit to become a habit.  Actually it takes two weeks to get the idea in to your head that this is a good habit to have.

brussels-sprouts-1856711_640Increasing our vegetables is getting easier.  It takes baby steps to reach the lofty goal of 6 full servings of vegetables per day.   A full serving, according to clinical dietician who is coaching me is 1 cup.  Ever try to eat a cup of brussel sprouts.  But it is helping, I am losing weight and lowering my numbers.

Recently I realized that somewhere along the time, I stopped sitting quietly before the Lord. I used to get up early just to spend that time.  clockToday I tried 10 minutes that was what I could manage.  JUST 10 MINUTES.  It is okay, God knows that I am His.  It is a work in progress.  Hopefully this time, I won’t let the habit slide.  After all communicating with God is the most important habit to cultivate.

Distraction and Fear

I have been thinking lately, that I need to write something.  I need to refocus on my mission.  But I was overwrought with fear. If you remember, about 4 months ago; I had  couple of serious emergency room visits.  I could have died.  But God said it is not my time.  I have more work for you to do.  At first I was resolute, this was not going to stop me.  Then another more serious event occurred.

I understand God, I need to slow down.  No problem, but how do I do that.  The past few months have been discovering how to let things go.  The furniture needs dusting, so what.  I need to make blah blah – so what, If I get to it, I will get to it.

One of the best things that I have done to minimize my stress is to buy my groceries online.  Yes, I have to trust someone else to pick it out for me. If it is not satisfactory, I can send it back.  How it works is I place an order and later I go pick it up.  This means I can look at the product before signing for it. Yippee

The real battle is the fear; if I start going too fast, then maybe I will end up back in the emergency room. I have once, but God is faithful. In that room my husband and I prayed.  My blood pressure dropped to an acceptable rate.  We learned the importance of praying together.

But I still wasn’t finding time to write to tell people how wonderful God is.  How he is changing me.  Even today, I resolved to write.  Things distracted me.  First the router flashed a message about authorizing an update.  Okay done. Then I remembered that I needed to order groceries.

Recently, I have been reading scripture reminding me “I should not fear, God is with me.” It really struck home when the doctor started quoting scripture to me. The tears rolled down my eyes, as I smiled back at him.  I heard God in his words.  Sure I had read it. Seemed as if every scripture I read; God was reminding me that he is in control and that I needed to focus on him.

One of the distractions sounded as if it were God, but then I prayed for confirmation.  I started reading scripture that clearly indicated that my ministry can not be separated from my husband’s ministry.  It sounded as if God had answered a long time prayer for me.  But after the third scripture mentioning that my ministry is interwoven with my husband’s ministry, I knew that this was the evil one trying to sway me.  See they kept saying don’t discuss this with anyone, not even your husband.  This is contrary to scripture.  Which by the way, is a good way to tell if it is really from God.  God’s advice will never contradict his word.

In the mean time, I was distracted from writing.  I was distracted from my spouse supported mission.

When I told him this morning that I was going to write something, his response was positive, but I could also hear the “it’s about time” in his voice.  God speaks to me through my husband all the time.  If you think God is telling you to do something and you are not certain; discuss it with your spouse.  If their answer is not what you want to hear, then it is not God.

My husband has been extremely supportive as I heal. He has not complained about how messy the house has become.  He has supported my efforts to lose weight and to become healthier.  I practice yoga and Ti’ Chi.  They are different forms of learning to calm the mind and breathing.  It is more than that but for this it is enough. I am working on incorporating prayer with my meditation, slow breathing.  This by the way is Biblical.

Isiah 35:4: say to those with fearful hearts, “Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you.”

Isiah 54:17: no weapon forged against you will prevail, and you will refute every tongue that accuses you. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lordand this is their vindication from me,” declares the Lord.

Proverbs Challenge Day 8

Sorry this is a day late.  Yesterday was a prime example of how The Evil one can push and pull to take you away from what is important.  God and seeking His wisdom.  I apologize.

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Proverbs 8: 1: Does not wisdom call out?  Does not understanding raise her voice?

Wisdom is there for the finding we just have to seek it.  It is on the path  in front of our feet.  That is one thing I learned about God long ago, He wants us to seek Him. It requires stillness.  I know what you are thinking, I barely have time to read the word, let alone still and be still thinking nothing or Okay God.  I started the same way I get back on track with reading His word, a verse a day, or a minute a day.  Then gradually increasing how much I read, or in this case; how long I stay still and listen for God to guide me.  On some occasions God guides me immediately.  On other occasions, I have to wait days even weeks to hear His Guidance. It depends on how quickly I need to know.

472 words about Distraction

Distractions, they are everywhere.  It is important to set time for God’s word. But there are so many distractions. I want to set time for the word, but things get in the way.  We are out of groceries so I need to make a grocery order. The clothes are dirty. Oh it is time to make a meal. I just need another cup of coffee then I will be ready. The truth is studying the word is just like everything else in our life, we have to make time for it.  God knew we would be distracted, that we would forget.  In Deuteronomy 6:6-9, we find that God told us to write it everywhere.

 These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.

Once we make time for God, we will find it easier to make time for the other things in our lives. Just like paying tithes, it works. Proverbs 3, tells about putting God first. It tells us that putting God first, will give us peace and prosperity.

Want to find out, try it.  Put time aside each day for God. Does it have to be first thing in the morning?  Well, I know that it works for me. What if I am not a “morning” person?  I get that, and I have compassion on the matter.  Many people are not morning people. However, putting God first really does mean first.  What it doesn’t mean is that you have to set aside a large study time. 

In today’s world, it is easier to put God first. Instead of looking at whatever you look at first thing in the morning on your phone, look at that Bible app. First read the verse of the day.  Guess what, you have just put God first. Putting God first does not mean that we have to carve out large chunks of the day.

It just means that we have to first focus on God then everything else will flow. Is that first verse of the day enough? Not if you really want to understand the word; but it is a great start. If you aren’t a morning person, that is fine.  But find some time, start slow 10 minutes and build from there. Intentionally set aside some minutes to pray and read the word.  At first it will be hard, but eventually you will find it so much easier. It is just like any other good habit, one step at a time.

 

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