Asking for Help (It’s hard)

The other day, on social media, I asked for prayer.  I was humbled by the number of responses and extremely grateful.

Have a hard cry

It had been one of those days when everything went wrong.  The previous night we received bad news. My body ached more than it had in some time. My vitals were terrible. I was 10 minutes behind all day.  I literally sat down and cried to God. I told him exactly how I felt.   Last nights news, was news that we had expected to be good news.  It turned out to be the opposite of what we expected. I told God how we felt let down. How my health was not getting better.  It had seemed to be getting better, but the past couple weeks; it was only getting worse. Then I heard this tiny voice say ask for help. I went on social media and asked for prayer. (the best help you can get)  I repeat, it was a tremendous response.  If you responded, even if you didn’t say anything        THANK YOU   I am feeling better.


We are still in need of help.  My illness has placed us behind. My husband works extra hours. I have been unable to do much of anything except make it to doctor appointments, trips to the store, and making meals. Which has left me feeling useless.  I know that I have to take care of myself and get better so I can continue to take care of others for years to come. But when all my efforts seemed to be failing, I started to feel down. Before this happened, not only had we started outdoor projects, I had started streamlining our house.

My home is not this bad, but it feels as if it is

You know emptying the closets getting rid of stuff we hadn’t touched in years. It is all still sitting right where I left it months ago. Winter is here and the weatherization has not even started yet. So the other day, I was feeling bad about that. On top of it all, I learned the work car is going. But through many prayers, instead of just crying, I have started doing.  Inspired by my actions my husband and son are moving in a more positive direction.  Hopefully the work car will at least have windows that roll up.


The bottom line: When bad news pours, and our lives feel as if we are Job; we do not respond as Job, remembering God is in Control .  He has this and sometimes in the darkest hours, we just need to reach out and ask for prayer. 


Walking on a picket fence, Even for 10

Hello,  Sometimes I find myself walking on a picket fence, knowing that something is wrong not wanting to hurt people’s feelings divided on how to handle an uncomfortable situation. Not wanting to sound as if I am judging someone.

Sometimes I see people walking in the gray area and God says that person is not one in your path.  Then it is easy, they hit my radar but I am not supposed to reach out to them.  I am to pray for them.  When this happens, I have learned to not sin by reaching out to them anyway.  I am not a super Christian able to reach every person that crosses my path.  Sometimes those people that cross my path are there because I need them.  God sent them to help me.

Our nation is standing on a picket fence.  Or at least that is how it seems to me.  One side seems to want complete control of our lives.  They are willing to do anything to get it.

As Christians we should beware of the untruths that are being spread.

If we don’t accept the side that is trying to control everything we are called all sorts of bad names.  They don’t accept that if I say okay you do that but I don’t approve; that is my right.  They want everyone to believe exactly how they believe.

The early church had that problem.  Deceivers everywhere trying to change the Salvation message, the word of God.

Jude: 17-23:

17 But, dear friends, remember what the apostles of our Lord Jesus Christ foretold. 18 They said to you, “In the last times there will be scoffers who will follow their own ungodly desires.” 19 These are the people who divide you, who follow mere natural instincts and do not have the Spirit.

20 But you, dear friends, by building yourselves up in your most holy faith and praying in the Holy Spirit, 21 keep yourselves in God’s love as you wait for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ to bring you to eternal life.

22 Be merciful to those who doubt; 23 save others by snatching them from the fire; to others show mercy, mixed with fear—hating even the clothing stained by corrupted flesh.

I guess I just jumped off the fence.  I am on the Lord’s side. The deceivers are wrong. Bring on your bad names you haters of God. God is my choice. I have been on this side for some time now, I just have been silent. Which is wrong. I hear people say there is evil afoot and no one can stop it.  God can if we believe if we ask. God Can. I understand that if the bowls have been poured there is no going back.

Remember Sodom and Gomorrah?

How about What Abraham asked God?

Genesis 18:

22 The men turned away and went toward Sodom, but Abraham remained standing before the Lord.23 Then Abraham approached him and said: “Will you sweep away the righteous with the wicked? 24 What if there are fifty righteous people in the city? Will you really sweep it away and not spare[e] the place for the sake of the fifty righteous people in it?25 Far be it from you to do such a thing—to kill the righteous with the wicked, treating the righteous and the wicked alike. Far be it from you! Will not the Judge of all the earth do right?”

26 The Lord said, “If I find fifty righteous people in the city of Sodom, I will spare the whole place for their sake.”

27 Then Abraham spoke up again: “Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, though I am nothing but dust and ashes, 28 what if the number of the righteous is five less than fifty? Will you destroy the whole city for lack of five people?”

“If I find forty-five there,” he said, “I will not destroy it.”

29 Once again he spoke to him, “What if only forty are found there?”

He said, “For the sake of forty, I will not do it.”

30 Then he said, “May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak. What if only thirty can be found there?”

He answered, “I will not do it if I find thirty there.”

31 Abraham said, “Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, what if only twenty can be found there?”

He said, “For the sake of twenty, I will not destroy it.”

32 Then he said, “May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak just once more. What if only ten can be found there?”

He answered, “For the sake of ten, I will not destroy it.”

33 When the Lord had finished speaking with Abraham, he left, and Abraham returned home.

If God’s people repent, if God’s people pray, God can stop the evil.

Prayer for Today:

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John 3:19-21: 19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. 20 Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. 21 But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God.

Prayer for the day: May we be Courageous enough to do everything in the LIGHT. 

God my BFF and being Holy

1 Peter 1:13-15:


What exactly does it mean to be holy?  I mean, on my own, I am not holy. I mess up every day. Today, I lost my temper.  I felt justified, but I really wasn’t.  Let’s face it; it is hard to be good all the time. We sin all the time. We don’t mean to sin; it just happens.  We think an impure thought, have a twinge of jealousy or fear, maybe it is gluttony, or self-pity.  We are after all, human, full of faults.  The great thing is there is forgiveness.  Jesus died for our sins giving us forgiveness.   Forgiveness does not give us a license to sin; no, it gives us the responsibility to strive towards perfection.  Even though we will not achieve it, we are called to be holy.  To live a life as honorably as we possibly can.

The catch, we have to remember that accepting Jesus as our savior, we are made holy.  Being holy does not mean being perfect. It means that we follow, that we try, and we do our best to be a light for the world. We share the LOVE of Jesus with everyone that crosses our path.  Losing our temper is bad because we lose an opportunity to share God’s love. Being holy means that we strive to use every opportunity.

Being Holy means that we accept that Christ is the Messiah, the savior, the Lord of all.

Moreover, it means that we accept Christ as our BFF.  Because that is the relationship, God wants with us.  He wants to be our BFF to talk to him the same way we would our BFF. To honor him as we would a BFF. We also need to acknowledge that God is more; we are supposed to follow him. Following and obeying God makes us holy.


13 Therefore, with minds that are alert and fully sober, set your hope on the grace to be brought to you when Jesus Christ is revealed at his coming. 14 As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. 15 But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; 16 for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.”

My trip to the ER and God’s hand

A week ago today, I sat in a hospital room trying to get some rest.  If you have ever been in a hospital you know how ridiculous that is.  Someone is coming into your room every half an hour turning on the lights leaving the door open. Then because of the machines, you have to press the call button and ask the nurse to turn off the lights and shut the door.  It gave me a new appreciation for nurses.  It has also given me a new appreciation for life.

The night before a terrible pain woke me up, I thought I was having a heart attack.  poor hubby had just gone to bed, when I told him we have to go to the ER.  Dressed in pajamas and slippers, sitting on an ER bed with machines hooked up to me all the beeping and dinging, I pray. I ask God to rescue me because I am not done yet.  I am not ready to stop spreading the word, explaining the word. I am not done telling people that they are wonderful creations.  I cried out to God, “God heal me”.

My heart came out of AFIB in five hours.  The cardiologist tells me that is unusual.  I tell him how frustrated the whole thing made me; I had been working so hard to get my numbers down, get back some mobility.  And I have gotten back a lot of mobility.  I was bringing my BP and my resting pulse was down to an average of 67.  My blood sugars were averaging 125.  Which is really great since just a few months prior my blood sugars were bouncing from 110 to 250.  A few months prior, I could barely walk across the room because my feet hurt so bad.

I had decided that I was not going to be that person and I stretched and did things to improve.  For the first time in years, I could sit down and put my shoes on without having to pull my leg up. I was ecstatic.  Then I crashed. But the cardiologist said something that gave me hope.  He spoke the wisdom from God. He said even healthy people, athletes can go into AFIB and many people’s hearts don’t go back into a normal rhythm on their own let alone as quickly as your did.

I should have told him that it was God.  I am not sure, I don’t remember, but I think I said I prayed.  Not only did I pray, but my husband prayed and I asked many more to pray.

I took this ugly picture  of my feet and posted it to my Instagram and shared in on my Facebook. Since I was still in the middle of everything it was a simple caption.  It said “AFIB Prayers” .  Later when I was more able, I sent out a couple of texts.  But at that point, I knew I needed more prayer, only God could heal me.

The verses that I had studied time and time again weren’t popping into my mind.  All I could think was I need God to heal me.  I could hear him whisper two things, sleep and ask for prayer.  I tried to do it backwards, but God expects us to follow the directions.

In 2 Kings 5:10, 14:  Elisha told the man to was himself in the Jordan River  seven times.

If he hadn’t followed the directs, he wouldn’t have been cleansed of the leprosy.

The same is true for us.  If we only follow half of the directions God has given us, or we follow but not in the order God gave us, it doesn’t work.  See the second time, I put forth the effort to take a picture, post it, then as I looked at my exhausted husband, touched his hand, I feel asleep.  We awoke to the doctor coming back in the room, the rhythm of my heart was back to normal.  They kept me about  10 more hours for observation, before sending me home.  Where I could rest.

I thought I was living, but I now see the difference. Living means actually enjoying life, laughing not always serious.



Cup of Coffee and Jesus

I know so many people, myself included, that make it their goal to start their day with a cup of coffee and a Bible or at least a Bible app.

It really depends on how early you wake up whether it is just the verse of the day or an actual chapter.

There are days, when I really don’t pay attention to the verse of the day either, it is just a chore that I check off.

Yesterday was one such day, I read the verse of the day and then two seconds later, I couldn’t remember a word.  It is easy to blame it on the time change.

Yet really it is me getting sloppy in my Bible reading habits, my prayer life.  When I reach that point, you know the one where you are barely spending time in the word, say an obligatory prayer

The point, where you look around and realize everything is making you angry.

That is when you realize that you are just drinking a cup of coffee.  I am ineffective in my walk with Christ, ineffective in my ministry. And it is time to remember Peter’s advice:2 Peter 1:5-8 NIV: For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.


Who cares about your physical color, What color is your soul?

1 Peter 2:9 NIV:  On those days when you feel as if no one is listening, no one cares remember:  But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

I can hear some of the objections, an unseen entity thinks I am Holy, why?  Because he created you and chose you to be His child.  He does not care about your emotional scars or your physical scars.  He does not care if you are in jail or have been in jail. He does not care about any of your groups. He does not care about the color of your skin. He doesn’t even care if you are in a wheelchair.  God sees you as His creation Beautiful. Once you accept Jesus as your personal savior; you become His and Holy


What is in a number?

In The Revelation of Jesus Christ, Lord and Savior, there are letters to 7 churches. These letters make frequent use of the number 7.   Seven lampstands, seven angels, seven stars, and seven churches.  Some things referring to other things.  lampstands=churches, stars=angels. However, the first thing that we should seek is honest evaluation of our own walk.  Are we too tolerant of sin? Do we ignore sin and say oh it is their issue? Let me tell you a person’s salvation is partially your responsibility.  If God has placed a person in your hands, then you have the responsibility to pray for their Salvation. If there are words that you should say, God will give you the words at the right time.  See that is why the truth is everyone’s acceptance of Jesus is their own decision. Our part is to pray.  What if we know someone is living in sin?  Again pray for them.  If there are words that you should say, God will give them to you at the right time.

We have to examine ourselves against Jesus’ warning to the churches.  I cannot determine the state of anyone’s soul but my own.  So often you hear Christians speaking poorly about other Christians.  If I have first hand knowledge, and have been convicted by the Holy Spirit to talk to them or to warn against them; then this is what Jesus means by not tolerating evil doers in your church.  This refers to people who are deliberately trying to tear down the church or other Christians.  If something is Biblically unsound, we must draw a line.  Someone that is unrepentant and living in sin that will negatively affect the church, then church leaders must prayerful consider removing that person. A person that is not in a position of leadership and not trying to disrupt the church, this is someone that you should pray for their return. Please note we are not talking about the day to day sin that people do.  This is referring to unrepentant unbiblical behavior.  

There are so many Moral issues facing the world today, just as they were in Sodom and Gomorrah. our responsibility to these people is to pray and wait for the Holy Spirit’s instructions.

Don’t forget the Light

John 1-5: Life in this world is hard.  There is so much darkness. The true meaning of a rainbow is being distorted. There are people who slaughter many because of the darkness.  It seems to be taking over.  However, there is hope. It is not in the next political election. It is not in man. It is in the one true light. The hope of the world is in the one true light. Verse 5 states the light shines in the darkness. And the darkness has not overcome the light. It is hard, because the darkness can be found even in places where it should not be found.  Some of our churches are filled with darkness. There is judgment where there should be love.  There are churches were not everyone is made to feel welcomed. There are churches that look at a person’s past and the belief is they cannot change. Alone we are unable to change. Change comes through the Lord. The Lord is the light. Yet, sometimes we put our belief in man,  and think that if we could only become like them, then we would be accepted.  This is a grave mistake. When we put our trust in man, we fail. We forget to remember that God accepts us just as we are. And God is the one that sometimes slowly, and sometimes very quickly changes us.  I have heard stories about complete transformations at the point of Salvation and others it takes time. This does not make them less and the others, the ones who are changed quickly more. It just means God has decided that this one, needs more molding, more work, and more time. It is not our place to judge whether someone is a good Christian. Yes we can look at their fruits and say ah Good fruit. But my relationship with God is my own. Just as your relationship with God is your own. No one can determine it except for the Light. The Light is the only place where we can put our trust. It will not fail, it will not judge –not until the end. And if we have the Light, then our slate will be clean before the Judge. To God each of us is a marvelous creation. So even though there maybe people who you do not find pleasing do not judge them, they are God’s creation, and as God’s creation he will mold them. Our job is to be a vessel of the one true Light. To follow as he leads us, to change as he changes us. As a vessel of the one true Light, our job is to share his love without reservation to others. If God puts someone in our lives, then it is our job to Love them without prejudice, without reservation. Because they are God’s work and not ours.

1In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made.In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome  it.

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